What is it ? What causes it ? Can I beat it ?
Another Sunday, awake at 6 laze about till 8 then rise properly. I have smoked 2 cigarettes, gotten my work stuff ready for tomorrow unlocked a savings account I have been putting of doing for weeks and sent of my 3rd angry email to Sony about fixing my playstation.
My house is clean from yesterday, I’m well rested, hell I’m just back from a delightful 2 week trip in Thailand!
Yet here it is again that dark fist in my stomach the dread anxiety feelings of failure, the pressure of my bedtime, it is now 09:03 as I write this I have to be in bed by 20:00 so I can be awake for 03:00 to begin working.
I think Sunday Dread for most people is that feeling of having wasted your weekend. Coupled with a five day week of a job you hate along with it, oh and all the things you feel crappy for not doing.
I mean I’ve read Grant Cardone, Tony Robbins and a bit of David Goggins.
If I want more, I gotta do more grind more hustle more Grrrrr 10x hustle , but in reality although what they say has some merit I also want to be happy have time work on things I care about have some form pride and achievement I want more money I want more time I want more respect.
So where does balance come in where do I find it ?
Truth is I have no fucking idea and that’s why I have started this blog.
In reality this blog is supposed to document all the steps I have taken to escape the rat race and these feelings, but I seem stuck I have zero idea what to do next.
I mean I have ideas but I also have doubts and I don’t have any skills or talents I can monetise
I spent my teens and twentys doing drugs and committing crime I have made easy money and lived the life of an outlaw
The actions I took I regret but god do I miss the feeling of freedom and excitement sometimes I ponder selling weed again but then I remember the feelings of arrest bail death threats etc etc.
For now I will keep working on my blog try to learn a new skill and stay positive, this Sunday rather than dread work and hate myself for putting me into that position I will show myself the empathy I show others.
I will walk my dog
lift some weights
finish watching shogun
spend an hour learning some forex
speak with family
Sure this aint the Sunday of a millionaire in the making but its the Sunday of a man who’s doing his best and just wants to be content.
These are all things that ground me
my dog shows me im loved
lifting weights makes me feel powerful
watching shogun is exciting and an escape
family makes me feel love
and writing my little blog makes me feel like im taking action
hopefully next Sunday I will have taken some steps I can talk about but for now I have started a blog im learning WordPress im doing more than I did last week and that’s enough for me.
id love to hear from people who also suffer Sunday Dread how do you combat it and what do you think causes it for you ?
No Longer Stagnant 
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